Johnny Louangphom
ENG 100 Assignment #1 Hiraeth Draft #1 There is a memory in my life that I wish I can go back to everyday that passes by. This memory plays in my head over and over again. This was the perfect Christmas I ever had in my life. A week before Christmas we had moved into our new house trying to get everything settled but time was whining down. My parents knew the house wasn't going to be ready but they didn't want to tell us that because they knew we would be upset and overwhelmed. As the day passes by Christmas was approaching there was still no tree and no presents, the house was nowhere close to being done. The night before Christmas I went to sleep early and upset not having a tree or presents, I was not feeling the Christmas spirit anymore. Morning has arrived and it is Christmas day I get up to get ready to remember there was no Christmas this year, I see bright lights as I walk out of my room with my head down but didn't pay no mind to it, just thought someone was watching TV. As I walked down the stairs I spot a lit up Christmas tree with a lot of present underneath them! Then I looked to my right to see my mom and dad passed out on the couch, guessing they had been up all night setting up while my brothers and I were asleep. We gathered around the tree and exchanged gifts, you could see the happiness and joy on our faces. I couldn't believe it, my parents made Christmas possible with everything that was going on. It was magical best the Christmas I ever had. Thinking that Christmas was gonna be the same every year, I thought wrong. My life was slowly falling apart, my oldest brother had got into some trouble with the police and was sentenced to ten to fifth-teen years in prison. Christmas would not be the same without him. As the years go by it was hard not having my brother there for Christmas but we visited him to make sure that he wasn't left out. Christmas 2007 was tragic, my second oldest brother had passed away earlier that year in September due to a motorcycle accident, our hearts were heavy and the pain was unbearable. Christmas wasn't like it used to be, we barely enjoyed ourselves, and was not as happy as we should be. It was tough not having my brothers around for Christmas it felt as if apart of our happiness had died. We knew we had to be happy for Christmas, my brother would've never wanted us to feel this way because of him instead of mourning, we celebrated because that's what he would've wanted. In 2013 my father was becoming really ill, we took him to the hospital to get him checked out. The doctor said that my father has lung cancer and that he only has a couple of months to live. My Mother and I were sick at heart, asking Buddha why, why our family? January 11th 2014 I was sitting right next to my father when he had lost his life to lung cancer. My mother and I were lost, we didn't know what to do or expect knowing that this Christmas it was just gonna be me and her. Christmas wasn't so bad that year we exchanged gifts and even visited my brother. I would do anything to go back and relive that perfect Christmas but cannot due to the circumstances that happen over the years. Wishing I was waking up with my family exchanging gifts and enjoying life like we should. I wish it was just a dream and that I could wake up from this nightmare. With everything that happen we are grateful for everything, even though they are not there to celebrate with us we know they are there in spirit watching over us. Cherish the moments while you can be cause tomorrow is never promised.
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